Depression

It all started on Friday. Unlike "normal" days, i walked to skewl, eyes puffed and all, hoping for a good day. It all shattered when I met The Cutie Pie (TCP). She told me even more to add to my shallow knowledge, and then, i broke down in tears. More and more fluid filled my eyes, streamed down my face like a river- and my sleeves were soaked. I was very stubborn, as I see now *grins*, at what a kid i still am. I couldn't let go, at all, but now i do have somewhat accepted reality. Still very upset about the news, but it is out of my reach to control. That's why the tears of sadness and frustration. I can do nothing.

Then Saturday passed, and now, Sunday's passing too. Still feeling down, tried to cheer myself up, but maybe hormones are playing tricks on me. Yet, the news has not sunken in... when i think about it, my nose still feels funny, and i try hard to stop my eyes watering. I do not know how to talk to TCP normally anymore, even though I shall try hard. I've been trying very hard the whole weekend to actually accept, and not change, the situation. Convincing myself is harder than i thought, as my thoughts are still negative- unlike my normal self.

Frenzship is a strong bond. Makes people happy, depressed. Right now, it's emptiness.

^-^b

PS bro, do not worry, i won't kill myself.